I’m fascinated with choices that we make. Only learning lessons as we grow older. Set out to live in unity and peace but as we grow, crushing everything and everyone around us. Bludgeoning blows delivered time and time again to people that looked at us as an influence.
Now constantly viewed as a curse to society.
I see now how my actions were plague like. How I sucked trust and love like a leech. How I left people on the floor to cry and feel betrayed. How I attacked each and everyone of you for not seeing life the way I did.
I prayed on you as if I was a bird of prey. Waiting for the second to devour your body.
I see all this now and I choose to separate myself from the previous book I wrote.
So for now, I can only apologize.
Pull out the bones or shallow roots become the feild. I introduce my hand in blindly and sever everything I can see. But everything grows when the shears leave. Everything! Every second, every hour. This is now and forever.
I stabbed the earth with the curse of my spear and killed the whale below. Now pull! Unbury every grave, I created. As it swallows light and the shadow of me.
This is now and forever.
Days are gray and cold.
Nights are black and bitter.
A feeling of defeat still exists within me. Unreal how it looms in my mind. I can battle through anything or at least I thought I could. How times have changed yet.
Days are gray and cold.
Nights are black and bitter.
Will this choice I’ve made ever give me the ability to regain a spec of happiness I felt when I was a child. Or will this sobriety give me a feeling of peace.
Bludgeoning to depths
Covering in red
I am ghost
I am lost
Never weep on my grave
I remain free
Bludgeon me to death
Cover me in red
I am ghost
I am lost
Never weep on my grave
I remain free
There is more than I thought
These flashes are bright
Blinding us all
There is more than I thought
These flashes of bright
Blinding us
All these feeble attempts at asking for forgiveness. A frail understanding on how to treat people. A wasted vision on what life was supposed to be.
If it wasn’t for the many I hurt, I would still be doing just that; pillaging everyone for a personal gain. In the grand scheme of life, it just doesn’t add up.
A man, something I wasn’t much of growing up. A man, something I strive to become while correcting these negating mannerisms I obtained through years of neglect.
It just pushes the guilt and shame deeper into my conscious. Choking you out until the black of night returns while it feeds off all of my negative behavior.
Reactions based off of interactions typically result in an incoherent rambling of nonsense. Lies and lies build up this false image of what I currently am.
Without these people spreading unreasonable falsehoods on my character only displays them as a demigod.
It’s a shame that you haven’t seen me learn from what I’ve done in the past. Of what I have been accused of since I was alienated amongst a group of rhetorical fools.
Some day, it will turn back around and smack you back a few steps. Then you can regather what it is you thought it was that you wanted me to be.
At the lowest
I have ever been
I refuse to fight
Call me hopeless
Please call me something
Please put out my fire
Instead of using another’s opinion on what was wrongfully assumed was my intention.
Bye for now, I’ll be here waiting and ready to talk after you learn from the belittling lies you have spread like brush fire.
Maybe I’ll bite my tongue
Maybe I’ll walk it off tonight
Or maybe I’ll finally say I need you
Baby I’ll try this time
I know that I’m never right
Or maybe I’ll finally say I need you
These Ep's just kept hitting you in the face and still had all the groove and intensity of ALOL. Really great little known and under appreciated band. death2yourking18
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